Saturday, February 22, 2003

 
Just woke up, going to go to the "8" @ McMahon to eat brunch with Diane. Then, joyous fun, I get to do homework. Looks like another gray day with high chances of rain.

Man!! The weekend pages in the M.C. Escher page a day tear off calender are really terrible. :) But I like the other 5 days of the week, so thanks you lots to Christine for giving it to me for Christmas :D. For instance, here's this weekend's 'quote' :
We human beings are always after contrast, and without contrast in a more general sense life is impossible on our solid ball of earth, which, revolving around its axis, floats so happily through infinite space in spite of all human blunders.

Okay, Diane got back, so we're going to leave to get some food in our tummies. :)

Unknown @ 12:54:00 PM

 
Oh yeah, I got to take a nice looong two hour nap this afternoon...although I forgot to eat lunch. I ate some sushi at like 3:30 though then I walked with one of the Sichuan students back to their apartments, it was raining hella hard. I helped him wash pots and then chop eggplant and then looked at pictures on his computer of the Sichuan students and after Peter and ZhangXin came back from doing the water research lab we all ate together. I was amazed at how they managed to come up with five different dishes including a soup that was great from the food that they had in the fridge. Really, they had like veggies, pork, chicken wings and tofu. Maybe that does sound like a lot, but when I opened their fridge up and looked inside...yeah. And they had to borrow some rice from the girls upstairs.
After we ate our fill, we walked over to Hansee and played ping-pong and pool. About six other people besides me, five guys, 1 girl and me. I played like two or three bad pool games, I hit some stuff in but the cues were just really awful and I was not on it. Ping-pong was okay, but yeah, they're hella good. Peter was nice enough to walk me back to Haggett and I showed him the dorm and my numerous pictures of Dan :) and then I gave him a package of 100 Grand candy that my mom gave me for my birthday (but I still have 1 1/2 packages left) and some scrubing things because they have absolutely nothing to wash their dishes with, basically, when I was helping wash pots and dishes from the previous night's food, we used dishcloths to wipe the dishes after running them with hot water. They had some dishwashing liquid, but it was almost used up and I didn't want to be like, oh, it's not clean enough blah blah, I mean, it's their dishes, and a little dirt never hurt anyone. I gave them some Big White Rabbit candy (if you're a true Asian you should know what I'm talking about) but if not here's a page about a bunch of Old School Asian Candy.

It was an interesting experience, what was cool about it all when I think about it, was that they totally weren't abashed or anything about the state of their apartment (I mean, hello, they're guys), and the fact that they didn't have a rice cooker and cooked the rice in a pot, and the lack of food, and the lack of dishes to eat with, and 'washing' dishes...it was just really real. And I think that they remembered that I didn't like eating hot stuff so none of the food was really hot, and they didn't use the peppers that were hot. They made some tofu stuff that was really good and they could have (should have) made it really hot but they didn't :). But yeah, makes me really want to go out and buy them a lot of stuff. They're well taken care of though, tomorrow is shopping day for them, and they get taken out by a group of Christians to Costco and Chinatown to buy stuff so yeah :) God has His eye on them. During dinner we all spent most of the time teasing Peter relentlessly because EVERYONE knows that he has the hots for this girl named ZhaoHuong (Little Red) and she knows it too, and we were just all telling them that he should go up there and ask her to come with us to Hansee. She didn't end up coming with us though, she was going to watch the movie Chicken Run. Which I've seen and it's okay, not the greatest.

Which reminds me, ahhhh, I have soooo many movies on this computer that I need to watch!

Unknown @ 12:17:00 AM

 
Thanks for the support :). Okay, I won't give up completely yet on shooting for a BioEngineering major, I'll make a valiant effort to stay in the game and make the grade. I won't talk about changing my major again for a while, but I think if I ever did change, I will change to be a Biology I major.
It would be cool to be like an English major or something like that, but it's been so long since I've touched writing or anything of the sort that it'd be like doing a 180 from where I'm at right now with taking solely math and science courses. Truthfully :D I'd be freaked, I'm afraid I've lost that zing that made writing stuff so awesome and a cool read for others. It's really something that comes from the soul you know? I haven't felt inspired to do anything artistic for quite a while. Do I even remember what it feels like to be so excited about an idea that it's worth staying up into the wee hours so I could tame it and put it into words? Not that I don't stay up late now, but it's hardly ever because of something that I'm passionate about. Except for when I get to talk to Dan :). All types of art are just so incredibly beautiful; when you read a piece of great writing, look at a piece of art, listen to a piece of music, watch a play, dance, sing...it's like you're tasting heaven, it fills you. And you want that moment to last forever but the only way to do that is to be in God. God is great amen? Amen!

Unknown @ 11:51:00 PM

 
First of all, I'm not being pessimistic or depressed, just realistic, and second, yes, I'm fine.

I've been saying for a while that I should think of a Plan B, since the possiblity of me not getting into the BioE dept is getting larger by minute. With the grades that I'm going to be getting this quarter and next quarter in my classes, there is no way my GPA is going to be high enough to be competitive. Honestly, for me to get into the major this year would be a miracle and one that of course I'll pray for but yeah, maybe it's not what God has in store for me, and if not, then that's okay too. I don't even understand how I made it this far with the crappy way I learn and how easily I forget things because I learn them half-assed. Sure, I can pick up the concept and use it, but only in the most basic format but if you just confront me with something that I learned like two weeks ago, I'd be like, yeah, I'm screwed. What's really sad is that I've gained the backing of a lot of cool people and they have trust and faith in my 'ability' to make the grade or whatever and I just feel that it's unfounded, I mean yeah, I'm grateful for their support but I also think, "Where the hell did they get this idea that I can do all this stuff?" From the looks of my grades, I am extremely average. I'm not a super genius and it's sad because I think I might have even believed that for a while because everyone else believed it and now reality sinks in. I just want to be able to do something and do it well for a living.

Unknown @ 2:40:00 PM

 
Alright!!! Now I have my own little random poll thingie. :D Right now I only have two different polls made (I can technically have ten polls at once) and you can access the other poll by refreshing this page. One is about how you're doing, the other one about the war w/ Iraq. I'm really enjoying this HTML on the fly type of web design. :) More stuff to come so stay tuned! :-* loves to all! And :) especially to my sweetie.

Unknown @ 4:09:00 PM

 
Yay!! An E.E. Cummings Poem---->(my fave)

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any---lifted from the no
of all nothing---human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

---e.e. cummings

Unknown @ 6:13:00 PM

 
"...in art we are dealing not with a pleasurable or merely useful plaything, but with...an unfolding of truth"--Hegel

Unknown @ 5:44:00 PM

 
The weekend was great though, I'm sad I didn't get to bring back the flowers that Dan gave me or the balloon, but I do have the paper airplane! Isn't it cute? :D I got to have Dim Sum too yesterday afternoon with Diane and her dad and Aimee and I ate 5 of those kind of whitish clear shrimp dumplings...mm, mmm, good :) This was all supposed to be posted yesterday but Blogger is stupid sometimes. I didn't get to sleep until 3, typical of course. Good news, looks like I have nothing due tomorrow, no lab, no tycho physics homework. Bad news, I pretty much bombed the math quiz today, and I miss Dan.

Unknown @ 1:16:00 PM