Friday, March 07, 2003

 
It's pouring outside but I feel pretty good, took a nap this afternoon after slogging through the Chemistry midterm and differential examples in my math lecture. George knocked on the door and woke me up like about five or seven minutes before my alarm was set to go off though. But actually it was an incredibly good thing because later I looked at the alarm because I was expecting it to go off and it turns out that I, in my befuddled haze of sleep depravation, set the alarm to 1:50 AM instead of PM. Which I honestly don't know how it happened since my alarm is usually set to about 8:45 AM and I would have had to pass 1 PM to get to 1AM on the alarm clock. Anyway, so Thank You God for that. The Physics midterm kicked my butt, but that's okay, afterwards I only freaked out for a little bit and then I got to the HUB and bought myself some Ben & Jerry's ice cream bar and ate it and that made me feel better. The Sichuan seminar wasn't too bad today either, mostly because the speaker had an extremely beautiful voice, I barely heard the words, I was just enjoying the sound. And yay, tonight I'm going to get slightly dressed up and go watch the concert. Ahhhh, the weekend. A little bit of time to relax and forget about GPA, exams, getting into a major, HW, and sleep. :D

Interestingly, I was a dumbass and decided to sit in one of the dozen seats in the physics lecture room that is intended for left-handed people.

Unknown @ 5:33:00 PM

 
I am bound and determined to go to the Faculty Dance Concert (Photo) and I bought a ticket earlier today after the Chem quiz. I've been asking freaking everyone I know if they'd like to come with me, but everyone's bailed out. Well that's just fine, I'll just go BY MYSELF to experience beauty and art and be 'cultured'. :P I'm just kidding, there is nothing wrong with hanging out with just me, myself, and God, I know I'll have a kick-ass time.

Sometimes I think I'm weird. Right now I don't really want to study for my two midterms tomorrow, in fact, I've had this mentality more than a few times this year, where something signifigant is coming up and instead of preparing I'm just like "You know what? I'd rather just fail it than study for it right now." Yeah, I don't know what's wrong with me, you'd think after roomming with Diane for the last couple months that I'd glean some of that "ahhh, I'm so stressed out!" feeling and like study like crazy or something. Yup, school...blah.

Unknown @ 3:48:00 PM

 
Wow it's Thursday already? Technically it still feels like Wednesday to me. I went to bed at around 6:30 AM then I missed my chem lecture, then when I went to math, my Powerade flew off my desk and went plop *sploosh*. Yeah yeah, I should have learned my lesson by now.

What I'm struggling the most with right now is coming to terms with the fact that I have no power to make everything all better for someone. I'm faced with these numerous situations where I'm always giving out dumb advice, trying to relate to the person, trying to solve their problem. But I'm always searching for words. Sometimes I just want to slack off and give the excuse that I'm too tired to think coherently so take everything I say with a grain of salt...but that's not true. I'm just frustrated that I can't give them the right answer. And even if I have the 'right' answer, it's too simple, too hard, too unattainable. And sometimes I worry that I'm not a good listener, it takes a lot of energy and thought just to listen. You have to have the right expression on your face, not look tense, nod when you should nod, smile with the right smile, and go "hmmm" at the right moments.

I've forgotten what it's like having a friend, is it like this, analyzing problems?

I just need to pray more, it's the least/best/smartest/unconfusing thing to do, give it to God. Not that I think that I can just dump it all on Him, but that in reality, it's Him that has the power to change and solve.

Unknown @ 3:22:00 AM

 
The really amazing thing about blogging is that I actually get around to reading my friend's blogs and wow! :D I actually get mentioned in their blogs. Aimee just came by to get her dozen eggs that she forgot plus her floppy. I have no idea what she's going to do with those 12 eggs, but hopefully she won't be forced to make a 6 egg omelet like Diane and me when we had a carton of eggs in our fridge that her parents bought us and then we completely forgot/ignored for like a month and finally in a moment of "Let's just get this over with" we went up to the 7th floor and borrowed a pan and stuff and proceeded to scramble the eggs. They didn't come out as good as we hoped, mainly because I forgot how to make scrambled eggs and I didn't scramble the egg yolk before pouring it into the pan...oops. They weren't too bad tasting though. We would have had to make a 12 egg omelet but unbeknownst to me, Diane accidently dropped the carton of eggs when she was putting them in the fridge for the first time (which would have been almost a month previous to cooking them). Then, instead of checking to see if any broke, I guess she just pretended it never happened ;). Anyway, long story short, I open the carton when we're about to cook them and about 3 eggs are broken and I proceed to break 3 more eggs because I'm trying to get them out. The yolk from the 3 broken ones had solidified the eggs around them in the carton making it impossible to remove them. It was pretty messy. Hilarious though, you should have seen the look of utter disbelief I gave Diane when she told me why some of the eggs were already broken, and why they were still in carton after a month. AND just a few days ago, Diane went out and bought 6 eggs.

Anyway, I was reading Steve's blog and man, :P he always spells my name wrong. It's F-E-I-Y-A not Fieya. But it's nice to be thought of anyway. :) It'd be cool if both Steve and Zach came to UW next year. They'd both probably cause a lot of trouble but it'd be interesting. Heh heh, let's see how well they handle the classes here.

Another 2 1/2 weeks before Winter Quarter is officially over for me! Oh yeah :) and tomorrow's the last physics lab...for a month, until I start Physics 122 next quarter. Sigh, all I want to do is sleep and/or watch the movies on my computer. But instead, I have a math assignment to do. What I would really like to be doing right now is hugging Dan. I think two things that I think about the most are Dan, and sleep. But anyway, soon very soon all of this will be all over. Might as well enjoy suff...I mean, this amazingly interesting period of my life.

Unknown @ 10:38:00 PM

 
Sadly, I didn't get to go see the X minute play festival yesterday, it was completely SOLD OUT, but I stood there waiting for like 1/2 hour just in case. Then I went with two RA's (resident advisors) from Haggett to the Henry Art Gallery and looked at the exhibits. :D One of the particularly interesting ones was this fairly large skeleton of a whale....made out of white plastic patio chairs! It was impressive.

Unknown @ 4:50:00 PM

 
:) hi yeah, I'm up, just registered for Spring Quarter classes! Yay, I got into everything I wanted. Now back to sleep.

Unknown @ 6:12:00 AM

 
Well, I didn't have to go to the zoo today, my friend Alex went with a few people from Bible study because his biology class requires it. Instead, I think I will go see UW's 2nd Annual 10 Minute Play Festival. I think the name is self-explainatory. A bunch of plays, all around 10 minutes long. Yesterday was interesting, spent the entire day in my dorm, "doing homework". Yeah, I did get some stuff done. Right now, I think I'm going to go eat my "Cajun Chicken" flavored Cup of Noodles. It's 'Much More Than a Soup'.

Unknown @ 12:50:00 PM