Saturday, September 27, 2003

 
These pre-school day are really quite interesting. I had an actual breakfast this morning with Tian and Steve and then later, I had to bail out on Nick and Jon for lunch because it was too early and I was definitely not feeling like lunch yet. Ironically enough, when I was hungry, I only had half of Tian's cookie for lunch. I spent most of the day organizing the room and I would say I'm about half done? It's not good because Diane'll be here tomorrow and I'm gone most of the morning. I spent too much time hanging out with people. So I am zipping along with the organizing and I decide I want to clean out the water pitcher so I'm in the kitchen doing this, and Phadar walks by and we stand around in the kitchen talking and eventually, this newbie NASA person named John comes by and so does Ryan, and we all stand there yakking along and then another guy comes by briefly. We end up all going to a late lunch/early dinner at the HUB and get to listen to the Husky Marching Band and it was super too bad that Nick wasn't there because they played A-Ha's Take on Me and I was the only one in my vicinity that recognized it. Thanks to Nick and his cell phone. Good stuff. Then Ryan and John and I stood in line for over half an hour to get a caricature drawn. I probably would have finished organizing the room by now but Rachel moved in and everyone decided to go to the Guys House which is like three blocks to the left of Pochie's at least, for cookies. That was pretty cool, we sat around and played Smash Bros. on the good old N64. I think I'll have to do some more organizing and then call it a night. Tomorrow, from 8:45 AM to 11 AM, I will be near or in McCarthy, doing the IV welcome table. Drop by! Join a Bible Study! Learn about Large Group! Most of all, come and see ME! :D

Unknown @ 12:33:00 AM

 
Oh yeah :D I'm nice and clean, chillin' in my good ol' dorm room in my new chair. Today, as it probably was for a lot of others, was insane.

I always drive the first shift whenever we go anywhere, so I was doing that, with headphones on as usual. I'm going around a bend at 82 mph, and see a cop lying in wait. I'm so paralyzed by fear and Oh ****!!! that I just let the cruise control do its thing. Yeah, the cop pulls out, and I get pulled over. He asks me all these questions, tells me it'll be like $153 just because I have my headphones on, and that I was going 77mph and then because my dad was riffling through a bunch of papers to find the insurance, he's like, you keep on looking for that, and I'll be right back. Yeah, you guessed it, my dad couldn't find the insurance, but Thank the Good Lord, we were so blessed and the cop was like, I'll let you off with a verbal warning this time, but don't speed and don't drive with headphones on again okay? I was nodding like a crazied bobblehead. So I just got out of a $200-300+ fine. We get into Seattle, and then spend like 15 minutes driving around Bellvue trying to find AAA because we left all our maps of Seattle at home. Then we had to wait 3 hours until we could unload the car and move all my stuff into my dorm. Yes, three hours. After about half an hour, I end up ditching my dad in the van and just hiking my butt over to Haggett. I wait in my lounge for pratically an hour, wondering where my dad was and watching CNN when I hear someone calling my name, I look over my shoulder and lo and behold, it's Tian. While I'm getting over this, out pops Steve from one of the doors and I'm like whoa! Both of you guys just came and found me! Apparently, by a stroke of God, Tian's family was 8 cars ahead of my dad's van and while my dad was walking around, they saw him. Then my dad called Steve on his cell and asked him to come find me. So there we were all hungry and thirsty, so we dropped by Ian's Domain. By then the cars finally moved and were allowed to go to Haggett and begin the painful unloading process. Spend the next few hours doing that, then my dad and I are starved so we go to the 8 for dinner. We made a stop at the UBookstore for Chinese books and an English book and then Office Depot because I forgot my chair at home and Haggett underwent some changes which left me in need of a desk lamp. Then I managed to drag Tian to my room where he assembled my chair for me and I basically IMed and talked to some friends that dropped by and screwed in some screws. And here I am now, sitting in my nice new (hopefully well assembled) chair in a room suggests that I tripped while bringing my boxes in and everything in the boxes spewed all over the room. Wow I have a lot of organizing to do!

Unknown @ 10:23:00 PM

 
Okay. LOL. Apparently, everyone thinks that the story in my post from Friday Sept 19th is true. It was just a story ya'll! Thankfully, nothing bad like that happened to me, it was just a story to help you truly feel the kind of emotion that I was trying to convey. Besides, don't you think you would have noticed scabs on my knee? So okay, to recap, the story was COMPLETELY FICTIONAL.

Now that that's cleared up, I can go on to say that I feel quite a few notches better about this entire situation. Since worrying is a sin, I'd better quit doing it huh? :) I have so many people backing me up, there's no way I can back down. So yeah, I'm gonna step it up. Take the Great Leap Forward. Cross a Great Divide. K, I'm done being cheesy now.

Unknown @ 10:50:00 PM

 
Well. Painted my toes and fingernails tonight. My toes came out well, :) cute and colorful, but my fingers....I had to repaint them like 3 times! I wanted to do purple, hot pink, and yellow at first so I did my left hand, looked at it and UGH!!! It looked clownish! Horrible horrible. So I undid the hot pink and yellow, then I tried red and silver with purple. Ended up the silver was much too sparkly and looked out of place. So I had to undo the silver and one of my purple nails so I could do purple and red. Now they look okay. The red is slightly darker than I would have liked, but eh. I know, who would have thought it'd be so much trouble. Usually I just worry about painting outside of the nail and staining the skin around my nail which makes it look really messed up.

It's a good thing I have a few days of doing nothing so I can spend all of my time packing excruciatingly slowly. Actually, I'm not a big fan of getting packed early. Since I know I'm still going to be packing stuff the morning of, why not just do it all the day before? Much more efficient. I am certainly a big fan of efficiency. For instance, the way I squeeze out ketchup from those little packets, the way I do it, I don't waste hardly anything. And definitely, efficiency in Chem labs is extremely important, or else you'd have to stay the entire 3 hours! But that is based mostly on the competency and how observant your lab partner is. If they're not very competent or observant, then yeah, the data (if any) obtained will suffer greatly if you try to be efficient. Or you can give them easy jobs like cleaning stuff and getting substances while you monitor the actual experiment. Hopefully, whoever is free will do whatever is needed next and there will be a smooth transition from one part of the experiment to the next. I like being efficient.

Unknown @ 12:24:00 AM

 
There are a lot of things that are out of my control. The question is what I do with that simple fact.
Do I moan about it?
Do I get depressed and fall into despair?
Do I get mad and scream?
Do I give up?
Do I ignore it and pretend it's someone else's fault?
Do I go into denial and pretend everything's fine?
Do I (in vain) try to work harder and get around it?

or

Do I turn to God?

Most of the time, I think God is a last resort. I turn around and around in circles and I get so dizzy that I'm seeing quaduples of everything and finally I close my eyes to try to stop feeling nauseous and BAM, suddenly everything is clear because I'm not looking at the world. Our God is an internal God, a personal Savior, someone you don't search for, or lose...because how can you lose something that's so much a part of you; it's like your shadow. Even though sometimes you don't see your shadow, when you find the light, it's there. And at noon, when the sun is right above you, and there's light everywhere, it's like your shadow gets sucked in and is closer to you than ever. But even in the dark, it's like everything, all the dark is your shadow, it's surrounding you.

More and more though, I realize how hard it is to accept the truth physically. I can't believe I was such an idealistic Christian, "Just believe and follow and you'll be blessed." It's a true statement, but there's one big, huge, blaring problem with it. Just. Because we are what we are, fallen, every time it's going to be a struggle to get up. And most of the time, for many many various reasons, we're don't reach out for that helping hand. Here's how I see it, every little victory is a step closer to winning the war. If I can just pick up my hand an inch, maybe getting to a foot will be easier, and then farther, until I can safely put my hand in His. Someday I'll get to that solid food.

Unknown @ 1:56:00 AM