I am an Asian-American college student majoring in Technical Communications at the University of Washington. My Spring Quarter 05 Schedule: posTComm, TC 403, TC 407, ARCH 251, ESS 495.
All I need to do is find a PAID summer internship and I'm set!
Oh man, I finally found it. Last Sunday at Jubilee we learned a new song, by this fairly new Christian band called Telecast. They rock. I LOVE these lyrics and the song, it's great. On their website, you can listen to 5 of their songs. From everything I've learned of faith, and how we all fall short, and just how great God is, these lyrics give so much peace. It's all about You Lord.
"The Way"
Give me words to praise You and love to love You,
But it has to be You,
Give me words to praise You and love to love You,
But it has to be You,
Take away the selfishness, take away the pride,
But it has to be You.
You are the only way I’ll go,
You are the only truth I know,
You are the way,
The truth and the life,
You are the only way for me
And Jesus Your love is a mystery.
Give me knowledge to know You, and the power to serve You,
But it has to be You.
Take the fear, take away the shame,
But it has to be You.
You are the only way I’ll go
You are the only truth I know
You are the only life worth living for
You are the way,
The truth and the life,
You are the only way for me (2x)
And Jesus your love is a mystery.
Your love is a mystery (2x)
Give me words to praise You and love to love You,
But it has to be You.
--Telecast, The Beauty of Simplicity CD
Unknown @ 2:50:00 AM
You won't lose me if I don't lose you,
For fear of this in our hearts holds true.
I don't know why you're with me now,
But it ended up this way somehow.
I trust in you, will u trust me?
I love you, really can't you see
I'm not ever going to let you go.
My thoughts are here to show
Forever is a long long time,
And that's how long I hope you'll be mine.
Although I've only known you for a while
Love has changed me during this time,
I don't remember what it was like w/o you,
Can you see what you got me into?
Everything, thats what u mean to me.
Love is powerful as can you see,
Under this spell I've changed my view
Only time can tell, the love between me and you.
hm. After reading Steve and Christine's extremely long blogs, I feel a little guilty that I don't blog about anything deep and serious. I can't. It's all much too complicated. I have to like write in code. Where do I start? I'm at an impasse. I feel like all I do is organize. Now that Diane mentioned how hard it would be for her to wait to open a gift, I'm wondering what's in that red box that my parents gave me. I'm anxious, but trying to act calm and composed. Which I think I'm failing at anyway. I hate that. I just want to yell at myself "FREAKING PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER! STOP THINKING!" I don't care.
I read the 81 assigned pages in Mrs. Dalloway by Virgina Woolf, and it's kind of a depressing book. So far anyway. It's a little hard to understand too, because scattered throughout those 81 pages are at least five pages of basic gibberish because you are focused on a character in the book who is shell-shocked and pretty much paranoid and insane.
I'm going to HOP (House of Prayer) at Jubilee tonight, so I can give Pastor Shin a letter. Then I think I'll go to WOW bubble tea which is right around the corner. That'll be around 9:00 or 9:30ish.
Biology sucks so much. They're having the review session for it Sunday night from 5-7 PM and I have to make it because there's so much to know, and it'd be good if they could just narrow it down to what specifically I need to know. So I'll have to walk to Jubilee from Hitchcock, which is way down there by South Campus, which means I'll have to walk quite a few blocks to Jubilee.
I am SO glad it's the weekend again though. I have a weird sleeping schedule, it seems like more or less on Monday, Wednesdays and Fridays I go off of 5 hours of sleep then Tuesdays and Thursdays I get the recommended 8-9 hours. Unless I decide to go to prayer on Tuesday mornings, or do laundry or go shopping. I love my schedule though, really I do, it's great to have huge blocks of time two days a week to actually get stuff done.
Unknown @ 7:00:00 PM
Better for them to rage against the glitzy dying of the light,
the tedium of vicarious tabloid living.
Better to froth at the mouth and shout out love
like Milton Acorn in a Toronto Park.
Better to recite four letter words
and get arrested like Ginsburg in San Francisco or better to sit in the woods alone
and contemplate the sutra of deer tracks,
and wintergreen root,
the succulent star moss and sifting mist of spruce trees.
Far too many of us have not gone crazy but remained sane and stable
and safe within the womb of the twentieth century.
Oh my gosh, I am so excited! I almost regretted agreeing to make the poster for The Mark Project, but it came out so well! I slept in today instead of waking up to study, and then while I was lying in bed trying to wake up, I thought, "oh man, what if I was supposed to meet someone this morning to get the posterboard and I haven't even checked my e-mail yet!!" But luckily, they couldn't find any posterboard, so after O.Chem quiz section, I just went to the HUB bookstore and bought a yellow posterboard and also a black piece of construction paper. Then I went to McMahon and made the poster with Michelle. It was fun talking to her. I brainstormed for about an hour beforehand while I was eating lunch and pretty much everything I thought of we used. I wish I had brought my camera to take a picture of the poster for ya'll!!! I'm so happy with the way it turned out. If you're going to Large Group tonight, you might get to see it, otherwise, look for it around campus on Friday or on Monday and Tuesday. The event is called the Mark Project, a modern play based on the book of Mark, and it's happening in Savery 239, Tuesday, Nov. 18th @ 8 PM.
I think it's just been so long since I've made a large creative thing that I'm a little dizzy from the high of it. It took almost two hours to make it!
Best Minds by Lesley Choyce (part VII)
The best minds still have beating hearts but the blood
fails to find its way to the sleeping brain cells
that store revolution like withered flowers
in the secret place
at the very top of the spinal column.
Yes, I've seen the best of them turn shiny and successful
and boastful of boats and Bay Street, blind with allegiance
to anything but themselves,
lost in a haze of Bacardi ads in magazines
and the possibility of retiring early
with the goal of doing nothing
at all but maybe play golf and take naps and wait
for lodging in retirement communities.
They still walk among us and rule and remind their children
that they almost went to Woodstock
and they really did change the world
and they believe in the life force of the planet
and admit that somebody's killing it but
it isn't them.
All my UW people should have gotten a detailed e-mail about my birthday celebration, if not, oops! I'm sorry! E-mail me and I'll send it to you. I'm excited for it to happen! There's so much to do! And I'm hungry...off to find food!
Unknown @ 5:45:00 PM
Whoo hooo!!! I finally finished my fund-raising support letter for my East Asia mission trip. Here it is, tailored just for you:
Dear Faithful Blog Reader,
I hope that my posts have been meaningful and interesting for you and that it does not detract too much from you getting your schoolwork done. I really treasure this relationship that we have, and the comments that you give me about my posts. I have really enjoyed sharing with you my thoughts, feelings, and the experiences I have had here at the University of Washington. I want to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving Day in advance, and a safe journey if you are going home. I want to tell you a little bit more about my experiences here at UW.
Last year was my first year here at the University of Washington and already I have had the chance to see and experience God working on this campus. I was on the prayer team for the All-Campus Praise Night where the various Christian ministries on campus had the chance to get together and praise God as one Body. It was an amazing event with people reading scripture in different languages and it gave me a hunger to see that kind of fellowship and joy be spread. I also did some witnessing on campus with some Campus Crusade friends which lead me to desire to do that for an extended period of time. This year, I have that opportunity, to bring the joy of fellowship, and also share the Good News with college students in East Asia.
During the last two weeks in December I have the opportunity to be a part of a mission trip to East Asia which is sponsored by Campus Crusade for Christ. I am particularly excited to be a part of this evangelistic movement because it is really focused on the students in East Asia. I will be going out with a partner to a University in East Asia and speaking directly with the students in their dorms. Since this is a “closed” country to the gospel, going there during Christmas is a great way to share with them the real meaning of the holiday. I am so blessed in my life, and I know the reason is because I have God's Love. I want to share this Love and help fulfill the Great Commission: Christ's command to make disciples of all the nations.
“Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:17)
For this to become a reality, I need a strong network of supporters. Would you prayerfully consider giving a tax-deductible gift of $100, $200, $300 or of any amount to make my trip possible? The trip will cost $3000. Prayers are also needed for the lost that I will encounter, may the Lord soften their hearts! Checks can be made out to Campus Crusade for Christ. Please, if you have any questions feel free to call, write, or e-mail me. My contact information can be found below.
Thank you for your time and for considering joining my network of supporters in this endeavor to reach the lost in East Asia!
For His Glory,
Feiya Wang
Haggett Hall Box 42369
Seattle, WA 98195
feiya@u.washington.edu
(206) 934-2301
P.S. Yes Faithful Blog Reader, I am actually asking you for support in this event. Anything that you can give or do (i.e. prayers) will be greatly appreciated :)!
Unknown @ 2:00:00 AM
It's been so crazy how Jubilee and IV Bible Studies coincide soooo much! For two weeks straight at Jubilee we studied Luke 15, about the lost sheep, lost coin and the lost son. Then, for the next week, IV did a Bible study on the same passage and the IV Large Group talk was also on the Parable of the Lost Son. And recently, Jubilee has spent two weeks going over John 2:1-11, and guess what? Today's IV Bible study was on the exact same passage. God has just been expanding my perception of how many angles and truths can be drawn from one passage. It's really interesting to see who emphasizes what and just how much you can get from one passage in the Bible.
LOL, it's amazing how little you can get done if you put your mind to it. I think also, that my canned corn shrinks after I zap them for 1 1/2 minutes. But they're still yummy.
Shoot........I'm just getting around to figuring out what I'm going to do with my birthday, how to celebrate it and all, and I'm thinking of eating and watching a movie, but man...the preliminary list that I've jotted down just in a few minutes of the first people I'd think to invite numbers close to 30. Of course, it could totally happen like last year, only Clement and his two friends who I had never met showed up. I'm going to call the resturant tomorrow and see if they take reservations, it'll be on the AVE, Thai food Saturday 6ish. Yes. THIS SATURDAY. I'll blog the main details some time soon, and put it on the calender and also of course send a mass e-mail. For those of you who are observant, the updated top 10 list includes three items (#3-5) which can be fairly easily purchased if you are itching to get me an actual gift. Please, because I'm scared I'll end up with ten cases of Mountain Dew (unlikely I know), tell me if you're going to get one of the three items.
Yay! The nightly Juice run is coming up! Then I'm going to go to Odie and studie ;)
Unknown @ 9:43:00 PM
In light of recent developments I've decided to post a few quotes.
All art, like all love, is rooted in heartache.--Alfred Stieglitz
"If you've been burned badly in love, does that mean you should want to go through the rest of your life not taking risks and not experiencing love again? You can coast through life pretty easily and not experience love, but then you die inside."--Bridget Fonda
"Tell me whom you love," Houssaye wrote, "And I will tell you who you are."
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible, isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up this whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. They do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."--Neil Gaiman
Best Minds by Lesley Choyce (part V)
I have seen the best minds of my time
stop trying to react to impossible, intrusive goals
and settle down to dream the dream
of Calvin Klein underwear men and women,
who wake up late at night trying to remember
what crusade it was that sent them shouting in the streets,
who once knew instinctively the Gulf War was never won
but a lot of innocent children were killed by your side,
who almost had the courage to say the deficit
was not as important as the destitute,
who almost stood up to the racists and the rich
and the right wing zealots,
who grew up and trusted the integrity of their banks and senators
and bosses at the corporation
and opted for new taste as in microbreweries as a sign
that they were freethinking and hip.
So I noticed that I usually blog like twice a day. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing. :)
Best Minds by Lesley Choyce (part IV)
who forgot the lessons of Vietnam and Nixon and Mulroney and Mars
but instead steal away to ClubMed to fake euphoria
while frying their pale skin beneath the cancerous sun
while sipping white zombies
and listening to watered down reggae music;
who came home to the city to chow down
at fashionable ethnic restaurants selling artificial foods
instead of home grown organic fare with lots of fresh herbs
from the garden,
who deal out moments of their lives
like cards in a stacked game of chance,
who arm wrestle the stock quotations in the Daily News,
who stare glassyeyed at the video lottery machines
in smoky bars at 8 pm,
who squelch even harmless daydreams
with easy listening music
or drown themselves in espresso and cappuccino,
who retire from challenges of intellect
for the safety of stadium spectator sports,
who ignore the kids starving in Africa and Asia but wonder
if there's profit in selling soap
and powdered milk to emerging markets,
who sift through junkmail looking for cryptic clues
to the meaning of life as if
the Publishers' Clearinghouse Sweepstakes
has some answer in the fine print,
some respite from the hollowness felt in the bones of loners.
An extra poem of the day, graciously submitted by Steve:
finite being 2: you should blog one of your poems
coollSTEVE: poems?
coollSTEVE: i dont have any poems i dont ryme
coollSTEVE: i dont have the pacience or the time
coollSTEVE: i cant spell, my grammer is wrong
coollSTEVE: it would be better if i quoted a song
Another late night, Christine and I went to Steve's room to get the stuff that my parents sent up with his dad and it's some pretty cool stuff :D, bamboo plant, leather jacket, passport, and some other stuff and a box with my birthday gifts. It was so awesome though, Big John walked by and he's the guy who's heading up the mission trip so I had a good talk with him.
Today, I'm going to go see the art exhibit at Henry Art Gallery! Lots of light. It should be exciting. I've heard lots of good stuff about it. This is definitely something that cannot be described, but must be experienced. Till then though, hopefully I'll be studying hard lol!
Best Minds by Lesley Choyce (part III)
I've seen the best minds browbeat by bureaucratic barbarism
chained to desks and ergonomic chairs
and losing valuable days of their lives
staring at fax machines and
waiting, waiting for a missive from Montreal or New York
so they can take one step forward or backward
or maybe nowhere at all,
who settle for new Japanese cars with staggering options
instead of freedom from career paths
etched in the ethereal circuitry of the internet
where gigabytes of information wait to pounce
like sleepless lions on the unaware clueless victims
and then drill codework into the left hemisphere of the brain,
Fifi 
Saturday, November 15, 2003
