Wednesday, July 07, 2004

 
So a few weeks ago, I had lunch with Dan two days in a row. The main point I think of it was really to exchange items. One of those items was this poster-size collage that I made for him for Valentine's Day 2002. It was one of the largest, most time-consuming projects I have undertaken. It kind of slowly turned into not just a present, but more of an expression of what I thought was beautiful and what I liked and what I felt encompassed Dan in picture form. The most beautiful thing about it is that it doesn't make me feel embarrassed or chagrined that I was so mushy and that it turned out the way it did...it just brings back fond memories. I love this poster. It reminds me of all the quirks, and the good parts and the things that I found out about him and that we shared, the insider stuff. It's just one big storyboard. Years down the road, when I think back on this relationship, I want this poster to remind me of it all, and not the brokenness and arguments during the Europe trip, or the growing pains the next summer, or all those phone calls that always involved tears and apologies, or all those times I fought back feelings of intense disgust, not because of something gross, but just utter complete repulsion at simple things like this stupid green gortex coat of his that I had an adversion to or even simply the way he moved. How he never had anything to tell me about his day and how my image of him at WSU consisted of him doing homework with Guy, going to church, doing church things, and going to class and sitting in the back making fun of the class with his friends. I just didn't want to believe that his life was really that boring sounding. Anyway, that was a long enough rant. There wasn't anything really huge that was wrong with him (for me anyway), just a bunch of little things that if I had to deal with them, I would have dealed, but I didn't have to just quite yet so I copped out. And that's the long and short of it folks, I just wasn't willing to deal.

Unknown @ 10:16:00 PM

 
Ah. So I didn't notice that I already blogged about the casino thing...it was just so cool I wanted to add some more details :)

Unknown @ 5:52:00 PM

 
This girl's offically off the market again.

This weekend passed by so quickly. After stressing and turning in my TC app., on Thursday I went to Toppenish's Legend's Casino and played some slots and also blackjack. Spent $20 on each, got about $13 extra on the slots, but lost all $20 on blackjack eventually...at one point though I was up by like $100 :D. *doesn't know when to stop* I was having a good time though. My friend Brian that I met at CBRC took me. I hung out with him some more the next day then Zach flew in on Saturday! Had an absolutely bomb time with him and his WHOLE family. It would have made me really nervous except for there were three different kinds of beer there and I tried all of them. Lots of fun, they're pretty cool, got some good cute pictures of them all. The next day we drove out to Levy park and they all went boating while Zach and I just chilled in a lawn chair and talked with his dad. Hung out with the TC group afterwards and had some awesome chicken, corn and salmon, Christine and Steve are great cookers. Fireworks were fun, pretty. Didn't really think of taking any pictures though, too busy enjoying it. However, as per many many requests, here are pictures of this weekend, last weekend and the weekend before that. :) Basically the pictures encompass hanging out with Zach, 4th of July, Boating, and Fishing.

Unknown @ 4:18:00 PM